Chai, chai, chai, coffee, coffe...

I am getting so excited about the festivals, but very much lacking in energy. I was on a train today and nearly slept through my stop! Then when my friend came to pick me up, i was so tired, i was talking nonsense. Plus my pixie ears went wild- i was sure my sister told me that she'd seen a cow in a flower. It was actually a cauliflower. Delirium is setting in, but i need to be at my brightest and best for the festivals, and as the coffee fan i am, i've reverted to that... but the lyrics to this song by Bethany Dillon have really been pointing out some key stuff that i'd almost forgotten.

"When the day is done
And there's no one else around
While I'm lying here in bed
You're in my heart, You're in my head
You're all I need, You're all I need
There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You're the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear

You are all I need when I'm surrounded
You are all I need if I'm by myself
You fill me when I'm empty
There is nothing else
You're all I need

When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There's a fire in my bones
I'm not afraid to go alone
You're all I need
You're all I need
The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You're still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You're all I need
You're all I need

I'm drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You"

I love coffee, but i need to rely on God a lot more. He is all i need.

Blog face

So, here it is. The typical introduction to a blog- this is me doing a blog! I've never done one before, and hoping to just pop in and out of it. Yep. Blog face.

This week, i put on a pair of trousers for the first time since the beginning of June when I went to America for a couple of weeks. We seemed to bring the weather back with us, which seemed to delight the British population. But it's been so muggy that I am currently LOVING the rain. Rain is brilliant. If i'm honest, it's one of the things i miss most when out of England. Rain. Real rain. The rain that looks like fairies dancing.

However, the effects of a lot of rain, I am not a fan of. We are currently preparing for the Soul Survivor festivals. Three years ago, my camp site got flooded, and seeing as i will be camping for four of the festivals, i really hope that this doesn't happen again!

But isn't this just a typical example of how we live? We love the thing, but not the effects? I love chocolate and cake, but i don't love the belly it gives me! I love ben and jerrys, cheese and yoghurt, but being lactose intolerant, i do NOT appreciate the consequences when i give in to the temptation. I love rock climbing, but the next day is so painful, that i forget all the joy that it gave me.

I'm still trying to figure out when the consequences outweigh the joy of the moment. I know that when i give into temptations of this life, going against what God asks of us and 'live for the moment', i regret it so much. But why do i still do it?

The tongue twister in Romans 7 says it all:

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

I'd quite like to change that.